I wasn't even prepared for this post...
Normally I know in advance what I am posting because I have quite a few topics I want to cover eventually....
Anyway...Because we spent 20 years in the military moving around every 3-4 years, we never bought a house because we never knew where we would be...
We thought about it once we retired however the time never seemed right and in hindsight I am glad I didn't the way the housing market tanked recently.
So we rent now that we live off base...
We have been renting our current house for 2 years - going on 3 years...
Well my landlord raises the rent every year so come May we will be up to $1220.00 a month...
I will say normally this wouldn't have been a problem however in my business, I am paid on commission only and business has been cut almost in half from last year....
So I have been looking for a new place that is cheaper as well as a little bigger (We are in 1400 sq. ft)...I found such place on www.craiglist.com It is basically a bunch of ads for just about anything you can think of...It is the same place I found my current house...So the new one is 1900 sq ft...4 bedrooms/2 baths/recently remodeled/pool etc...For $650.00 a month - That is almost 1/2 of what we pay now so of course I jump all over that!
I was supposed to go see the house today and I just received an email from the (out of town) owners that it has now been leased...Ummm WHAT????
I spoke to the woman showing the house yesterday - She had no key and no way to let anyone see it and no less then 15 hours, it is gone?
Is this a sign that it isn't ment to be?
There would have been obstacles to moving to that house (ie: different school districts for both boys and the logistics of getting them both to the schools they are at now, the lease would be for 1 year only since she would be back next year etc...) so I sent up a prayer asking Him to please send me a sign as to what to do?
I guess I got my answer so now I am back to square one...
This has been the most blatant answer I have received in a long time and I thought I would share with you all.
Normally I would have just moved on - Cursing along the way :o)
However this morning I read a post from my BF Ace and she reminded me that this may be a miracle to me though not in the way I thought it would be...
Not all miracles are as perfect as you want them to be....
They very rarely come in the form of a bazillion dollar check from the lottery office...
They don't involve you going to sleep and waking up with a perfectly shaped ass and a six pack for a stomach...
They don't come down from heaven on the wings of an angel and handed to you on a silver platter...
They aren't doled out perfectly to each person who asks for one...
However they are there....
I remind myself each and every day that someone out there is worse off then I am...
And I remind myself that it is a miracle that I am still alive...
Yes I am struggling inside however I have food on my plate, clothes on my back, a (expensive haha) roof over my head etc....
There are people who don't have any of that and I pray for them every night...
I think the miracle here is not that I lost the house that I thought would be perfect but the peace I found accepting it albeit with a few choice words...
The miracle is there...
If you chose to see it...
Even if it isn't exactly what you are looking for....Thank you Ace for reminding me of that!
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At Times Life’s Unfair And
You Know It’s Plain To See
Hey God I Know
I’m Just A Dot In This World
Have You Forgot About Me?
Whatever Life Brings
I’ve Been Through Everything
And Now I’m On My Knees Again
That was a great post. It is hurtful sometimes when things don't work out the way we wanted them too. I believe then that God must have something even better for you than that particular house!
ReplyDeleteOh Serenity...I ahve been reading your blog and Ace's. Yall both have done 2 great post today. I completely agree with Carrie...God does have something bigger & better for you! THank you for taking a minute to tell us that because it's not everyday that I see these types of miracles...I have to keep reminding myself!
ReplyDeleteI agree- it hurts when things don't go the way you desperately need it to. Its easy to forget that there is a grander plan in the whole scheme of things, even though you don't know what it is. I agree, a 1900 sq ft house for $650 is an absolute STEAL! Here, it would have been like $3000 a month for a house that size.
ReplyDeleteI was already completely blessed by the comments and then you go and do a whole post! I thought that just by putting my heart and thoughts out there someone else might be encouraged. But I have been been blessed today.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard not to get mad at stuff like that. I've been way past angry the past year having to live so tight with 2 expensive roofs to pay for, one's not even over our heads! But I'm realizing (finally) that it's taking this for me to go to and fully trust the One that knows what's best for us. Even if I don't always like it!