The Darkness

THE CHILD IN THE DARKNESS IS FEARED BY THOSE IN THE LIGHT

"As The Child Slips Into The Darkness

For She Shall Never Return

But She Shall Learn To Walk

Stand On Her Own Two Feet

To Face The Fear, Hatred And Pain

For She Shall Overcome All That Has Been Done

And Be Greater Then All That Has Been Given."

You go through life believing what you are taught...

As a child, you are guided by your parents, as a teenager, you are lead by your peers, as a young adult, you struggle to find your place.

As a full grown adult some people made it through easier then others.

I always believed I was more "dark" then "light"...

I always believed I would be trapped by my darkness because I didn't know any other way...

Then one day I woke up and could see a pinpoint of light, faraway in the darkness...


The light was calming within my turmoil...

Calling me to follow...

Guiding me towards the gentle love being offered...

I wanted to go to that light however "worthiness of what I have to offer" wouldn't allow me to.


So faraway yet so close I could almost reach out and touch it...

Everyday the light came a little closer and everyday, the fear became a little smaller...

Each day that passed I wanted to climb out of the darkness surrounding me however was I worthy?

Was I worthy of receiving that light?


The light comes closer and I can see it is not just one light but many different lights...

Different shades of brightness coming from all who are surrounded by me...

Some lights are so bright they are absolutely blinding and I can't be around those lights...

They are so bright they are toxic...The light pierces your soul and wants to suck every bit of your life force.

The toxicity of the bearers of that light will get in if allowed and you will become lost...

You will become what they want you to be...

No longer existing as your whole self...

Just something someone wants you to be.


The other lights... Loving - Gentle - Calm

God's Light is the absolute brightest light there is...Not blinding - Just full of Love, Peace, Hope, and Joy.

I need His Light to find my way - His Light shows me where He wants me to be.

True friends have a calming light...

Their light is shining down on your path, gently guiding you...

Showing you what "pieces" to keep and which to toss...

Someone close to my heart told me last night, I was more then "worthy" -

Those words and their light mean so much to me and no matter from this day forward what I say, I will never, ever have the words to put into meaning just how much that sentence meant to me.


THIRD DAY
I Know That You Are Holding All The Answers
I'm Tired Of Losing Hope And Taking Chances
On Roads That Never Seem
To Be The Ones That Bring Me Home