That is a cardinal for those of you that don't know...
The cardinal is a sign to me that I am doing God's will...
At a low point recently, I asked God to send me a sign, I specifically asked for a red cardinal since they have become scarce lately...
It would be 1 week before I saw one...
Since I asked, I have seen a total of 3...
The third one being this morning when I was outside listening to the birds and watching a squirrel...
I happened to look up in a tree (was watching a blue jay) and noticed a birds nest...
A flash of red caught my eye and there he/she was sitting on a limb clear as day...
A beautiful reminder from God that He is right there beside me no matter what...
Through the confusion, the pain, the questions, the fear, the anger, the hurt, He is standing right next to me...
I needed a reminder, I have seen hubby twice this week for a few minutes each time...
Both times it was like nothing was wrong between us...
He says all the right things and shows me affection like he used to...
I am thankful for that...
However he still gets in his car and leaves...
I am then left with "confusion snakes" whirling around my brain when he comes around...
Questions that have no answers right now...
I feel "off" the rest of the day and I can't stand that...
So I pray - A LOT
I pray for wisdom, strength, courage and inner peace to continue my stand...
I pray for the tears to subside (they have diminished)...
I pray God will put someone in hubby's path (like He did to me) to get him back to the Lord...
I pray for my friends (yes you all included) and family...
I send up a lot of thanks because even with all I have lost, I am still thankful for what I have because someone always has it worse then me...
I watched the cardinal for a few minutes then he flew away...
The feelings of peace stayed within me.
No song - Someone sent this to me yesterday -
" The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you"
