To The Cross

"Cast Your Burden On The Lord, And He Shall Sustain You; He Shall Never Permit The Righteous To Be Moved."

Psalms 55:22

It took me a long time to "cast my burdens" upon Him.

It took me even longer to leave them at the foot of the Cross.

I am a worrier by nature, my Dad informed me tonight I carry guilt like a "20 pound sack" everywhere I go.

In order to let go of that, I had to reach deep inside of me, change my way of thinking and my way of dealing with circumstances.

This has been the hardest part of the journey, to relinquish control to someone I can't see with my own two eyes standing in front of me.

Trust has never been hard for me, until 18 months ago I trusted completely without question.

Now, I don't.

There are only a handful of people I trust now and I can honestly say I am unsure if I even trust them completely.

My Lord wants me to trust Him completely, with each aspect of my life and to be honest, I am having a hard time with it.

You can send me all the emails in the world about what an inspiration my words bring to your life, however you should know I struggle daily.

Faith may seem like it comes easy to me...

I am here to tell you it doesn't.

Where I used to trust at face value, I now question everything, including what He wants from me.

Worry is a symptom of not trusting, so by worrying I am basically saying I don't trust Him to fulfill His promises to me.

The Cross is a symbol of peace to me...

Nothing else in this world brings me more peace than the sight of a Cross.

Two thousand years ago Jesus was nailed to that Cross, beaten, rejected and left to die at the hands of man.

The thought should bring you to tears in an instant.

Why did He die?

For our sins.

He died to save us from the wrath of God, to make peace between God and us.

The Son of our Father drank the wrath each one of us deserves to feel...

By His stripes, we are healed.

Isaiah 53:5 - "But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, by His stripes we are healed"

Let that sink in for a minute.

Because He was crucified on the Cross so long ago, your "old" self died with Him the minute you accepted Him as your Lord and Savior.

Yes, your old, selfish, man made ways are dead now...

Past.

In order to live the life He wants, in order to live to glorify Him, you have got to let go of the past.

Yes, I said those words...

Because of what Jesus did and our Faith in His word, we have the same power within us that raised Him from the dead.

Yes we will still struggle, however because of Him we will be victorious over the way we used to live.

You can't do this alone...

I have mentioned I carry on a running conversation with Him throughout the day...

He knows when I feel my own weakness, knowing I just can't shoulder it so I admit it in prayer and ask for Him for His strength instead....

In my weakness, I am strongest.

In your weakness, you are strongest.

2 Corinthians 12:9 - "But He said to me, My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."

The power of the Cross is yours, all you have to do is go to it.

Kneel at the foot of the Cross and just starting talking to Him...

I don't pray with fancy words, I pray as I talk to you, I pray from my heart...

Sometimes I am so moved I end up in tears, other times I walk away feeling worse than I did when I knelt down, however I still take each and every care, each and every burden to Him.

Not only do I take it to Him, I leave it with Him and if by chance I find myself taking it back, I stop and release it back to Him...

Control is never, ever easy to give up.

Before I started this post, I said a prayer for any reader I have that doesn't know our Father personally and intimately...

If you don't know Him all you have to do is say the following prayer and mean it with your heart...

"Lord Jesus, I am a sinner. But I believe that you died upon the Cross for me. That You shed Your precious blood for the forgiveness of my sin. And I believe on the third day that You rose from the dead, and went to Heaven, to prepare a place for me. I accept You now as my Savior, my Lord, my God, my friend. Come into my heart, Lord Jesus, and set me free from my sin. And because You are my Savior, Jesus, I shall not die but have everlasting life."

Amen.

HILLSONG
At The Cross I Bow My Knee
Where Your Blood Was Shed For Me
There's No Greater Love Than This
You Have Overcome The Grave
Your Glory Fills The Highest Place
What Can Seperate Me Now