Created To Stand Out

"Am I Now Trying To Win The Approval Of Men, Or Of God? Or Am I Trying To Please Men? If I Were Still Trying To Please Men, I Would Not Be A Servant Of Christ."

Galatians 1:10

We all want to be accepted.

By our families, our friends, our loved ones, our co-workers etc...

I wanted to as well until I came to the realization, I wasn't created to fit in...

I was created to stand out.

Each and every thing I look at as a curse, has actually been a gift from Him...

This is how I was designed, by His hand...

I can't be what others want me to be...

I can only be what He wants me to be.

I will never be you, you will never be me...

I can adapt different traits to fit in to whatever my surroundings are, however ultimately I am still me inside and no matter how hard I try, I can't change that...

He didn't design me to fit in...

He designed me to stand away from the crowd, not to draw attention to me, but to draw attention to Him.

To live the life He wants me to live for Him...

To be able to glorify Him in all I do...

He called me to do what is right for my life, the way He wants it to be...

I ask the question - Who am I?
Not "Why me?" but "Who am I?"

Who am I to even begin down a road He called me upon?

Who am I to even begin to think I know what it is He wants for my life?

I feel like I am being blindly led down a dark road most of the time.

He called me to this path, and I know He is also holding my hand as I travel it...

He doesn't want me to fit in everywhere I go, He wants me to shine in all that I do...

He wants non-believers to see His light pouring forth from me...

He wants me to lead them to Him, and quite frankly I don't know how.

He called me to do what is right, and each step I take feels like I am walking on broken glass, barefoot.

He is guiding in wisdom, as I pull back a little each day, fearful of what He has planned for me.

If I can be calm within Him, trust within Him, I will have His strength, yet I am overwhelmed.

Having been summoned by name, I am His, covered by His hand, sheltered by His wing, this I know yet I also know I feel more alone then I have ever felt in my life.

During my times of prayer, He puts different words on my heart, different people on my heart...

People around me who have pulled away due to circumstances surrounding them are on my heart all the time, because He put them there as a reminder to not forget, to not close the door that they may need to enter at a different time, different season.

My words here, on my blog, are so unfamiliar to me that when someone tells me they enjoyed a particular line, or particular post, I question if I wrote it...

My thoughts are so unfamiliar to me, I wonder sometimes if I am losing my mind...


My heart, I wear it on my sleeve, I have been told that at least a thousand times in my life...

It is bruised, battered and torn, yet He is healing it, one day at a time...

Not in the way I prayed, not in the restoration of my marriage, however in His way...

Even in the eye of infidelity, I stand out, due to the choices He has allowed me to make in His name.

So I accept that I am not you, I accept you will not ever be me...

I take all my quirks, thoughts, mannerisms, emotions etc... and I say "Thank You"...

For though I may be different then anyone you have ever known, this is me...

I was created to stand out and shine for Him.

CASTING CROWNS
Not Because Of Who I Am
But Because Of What You've Done
Not Because Of What I've Done
But Because Of Who You Are