My brother has given us until the end of the week to get out of his house because he wants "normalcy" ...
WTF? Me personally would never in a million years put my own selfishness above my family...
I would never kick anyone when they are down but that is just me...
I know we are all different people however it amazes me that the 3 of us were all raised in the same household, by the same parents and we are so totally different in almost every aspect...
After we had it out last night, I cried myself to sleep wondering what in all that is Holy did I do to deserve all of this...
I am told we are never given more then we can handle...
I believe that however I have had about enough and I don't want to handle anymore...
I want my family and life back but for some reason, it just isn't happening...
Some days I wonder if I am being punished for my past however I know that God doesn't work that way...
It saddens me that I treat people the way I want to be treated yet I can't catch a break where my family is concerned...
SEETHER
So Break Me Down If It Makes You Feel Right
And Hate Me Now If It Keeps You All Right
You Can't Break Me Down If It Takes All Your Might
'Cause I'm So Much More Then Meets The Eye
I'm sorry friend. Keep your chin up. One of these days when things are going amazing, you'll be able to look back at all this and know why it happened. You just can see it now.
ReplyDeleteI understand, Serenity. I'm so angry at God right now that I just don't understand why I am in the position I am in. But I guess we are supposed to learn from all these "hardships" that we go through... but like Ace meant to say, you just can't see it now, but later on when things are peachy keen, we will be able to look back and understand why it happened. Right now, GRRRR.
ReplyDeleteBig hugs to you. You're right, you aren't being punished..and even though it may be hard to see...there is a plan. Hang in there, girl..You've been so strong, I know you'll get through this
ReplyDeleteIt's a hard place to be when God seems silent and nothing makes sense. I'm praying you can rest in God's promises, even if you can't feel them right now.
ReplyDeleteJob 23:8-10-But if I go to the east, he is not there; if I go to the west, I do not find him. When he is at work in the north, I do not see him; when he turns to the south, I catch no glimpse of him. But he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold. ~~~~ These were the verses from my devotion. I NEEDED THEM TODAY! Even if I can't see Him, He knows where I am. When I want to KNOW and UNDERSTAND, He simply wants me to TRUST. I'm praying for you. I know things don't make sense, and times are hard, but TRUST in the One who controls the Universe and who LOVES YOU beyond measure! Love you, Friend =)
ReplyDeleteOh girl! I know you are going through a very trying time right now. I am praying that YOU will have some "normalcy" soon back in your life!
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