I have been feeling guilty because I have been thinking that I may not want hubby back (it comes and goes) if/when he does decide to pull his head out of his ass...
I think anger is starting to seep in...
I wonder how you can bail on your family after 20 years together with no regret...
No remorse...
No apology...
Then I wonder, if I do take him back (that would be if he wanted to come back), how would I even begin to know how to trust him again?
Who is to say this won't ever happen again?
I deserve to be happy...
I deserve to be 1st in someones life - My Pastor told me a couple of weeks ago that God doesn't want me to be 2nd...
I deserve better - You know why? Because I give better then this...I would never in a million years treat anyone the way I have been treated the last few months...
I would have walked a mile over broken glass for this man...Shouldn't he feel the same way?
What in the hell does she have that I don't?
I know you all don't have the answers but I need to get the questions out there...
This damn MLC is driving me insane lol...
Have a wonderful weekend to you all...
(((Hugs)))
BLUE OCTOBER
I Wanna Say Your Name
But The Pain Starts Again
It's Never My Luck
So Never Mind
Amen, Serenity. I would think, if it were me in your shoes, I wouldn't want to take him back. Theres no way I would be able to trust him again, and there's no way I would want him to be in my bed anymore. You're right, you should be first in somebody's life. It is perfectly OK to feel the way you do, and to get ANGRY about it. I would worry about you if you weren't!
ReplyDeleteI am sending you virtual (((HUGS))) yes everyone deserves to be someones #1!
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