"He Maketh Me To Lie Down In Green Pastures: He Leadeth Me Beside The Still Waters."
This isn't going to be a long post, I just didn't want you all to think I forgot about you, because I haven't.
There is so much I want to say, however it is already after midnight, and I have a full day ahead of me tomorrow.
Mediation came and went, the end of last week...
I was happy with some areas, and not some happy with other areas.
A new light was shed the beginning of this week and I decided that we should go to court instead (more later).
I need my boys to be the priority here, not my wishes or his...
This past week I have been teaching Vacation Bible School to the pre-schoolers, for the very first time ever!
They run me ragged, I am not going to lie...
Even with an assistant, I come home with muscles hurting everywhere, voice is almost gone and I am dog tired.
However, little man, who has been going as well, decided he wants to attend Church with me every Sunday now...
He has gone a few times before, but it was a battle each and every time and I finally decided that I would let him make the choice, I would continue to go, pray, let him see how I rely on Him and I prayed that I could lead by example.
Either July or August, I will be leading my first Bible Study for the women only.
I am looking forward to this.
The book we are using for Bible Study is Becoming a Woman of Excellence by Cynthia Heald.
I encourage all women to read it.
There are 11 lessons in the book, written for women, by a woman.
You can't just give your opinion on it, you have to dive deeply into the Word to seek the answers.
School has been wonderful so far.
I haven't been able to take any classes that require money (I was taking free classes offered by the University), because my transcripts were held up by a mistake I made, however all has been taken care of and as of this past Tuesday, I am a real student, taking real classes that cost real money.
Doors were thrown open where financial aid was concerned and my school will officially start 08/22/11.
I will be working towards an Associate degree in Religion as well as a Bachelor of Science degree in Religion with a concentration on Pastoral Leadership and a minor in Christian Counseling.
Once these are done, I will move on to my Master of Divinity with a specialization in Pastoral Ministries.
Little man is doing very well.
He passed to the 3rd grade, after a struggling year where he finally seemed to "catch up" in the last few weeks of school.
I hate that his birthday is in May, having entered school younger than most, it shows.
However I will do whatever I can to make sure he doesn't fall behind as well as make sure he fully understands what he is learning.
There are still fires to walk through, mountains to climb, valleys to face and fears to overcome.
Yet I never walk alone.
I never face any fear on my own.
I have been pulled out of my comfort zone so much in the past 2 years, I couldn't tell you where I am comfortable anymore.
I am facing so many fears, that used to hold me back and I am very grateful for the chances that have been offered to me, by Him.
I now have a date for my first "sermon"...
(I put that in quotations because I am not a Pastor yet so I am called a special speaker.)
I will be speaking on Romans 9:1-5 (I see a new tattoo in my future) :)
"I say the truth in Christ, I lie not, my conscience also bearing me witness in the Holy Ghost, That I have great heaviness and continual sorrow in my heart. For I could wish that myself were accursed from Christ for my brethren, my kinsmen according to the flesh: Who are Israelites; to whom pertaineth the adoption, and the glory, and the covenants, and the giving of the law, and the service of God, and the promises; Whose are the fathers, and of whom as concerning the flesh Christ came, who is over all, God blessed for ever. Amen."
Once I finish writing it, as well as delivering the message, I will post it for you as well.
Please say a pray for me; That I can get over the debilitating fear of speaking in public, that the words that leave my mouth are His and His alone ~ Thank you.
May God bless each and every one of you.
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On The Edge Of This World
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